I WANT TO BE BADDDDDDDDDD !! BADLY !!:(

hah.. …!!!! after a self realization of myslef for 25 years…i hav come to a conculsion.! My Image till now has always been Considered as a gud boy !! wether in School or in college or in my training days.. or in my project.. not because of my hard work or dedication..but due to because of my nature or way of speaking to people..!!they say I am very polite..and soft spoken..To be Frank it is true as well… I hardly had any fights in School or in College other than That with my siblings and cousins over some superiority… even during Colony cricket competitions .. whenever some used to appeal over my wicket… before the LOCAL umpire should say anything I was back to the pavilion..and at The time of my bowling if I had to Appeal regarding some one As OUT… and if he said “ oye I Am not out .. “ My response was “ ok ok … don’t fight and “ our friend ship is superior than anything etc Crap “ and than continued to play…

 I was among that group in college whose Aim was To Study and Achieve gud percentage marks and than finally get Selected in one of the Prestigious company .. though it doesn’t mena that we never had fun in our college life..and whenever the time permitted .. we used to go to movies , discos and BIRD WATCHING (I hope u get the point  ) at the destined Areas of my city after bunking the classes. But the real Aim was never forgotten.. ..Many A times in College I Was approached by ppl from opposite Sex as the ONLY TRUSTED BOY in case of any information they needed reg college Attendance .. what happened in lecture…the Respective notes etc etc.. …

These are some trifle examples showing my NON- ENJOYING ATTITUDE of my life … (as Stated By others ). Many a times I felt the Regret that why I am so gud.. :’( as the Person who never attended the college and did double dancing @ disco than me..Is also doing the similar job… the Person who did a bird watching Triple than me is now a discovery channel Expert ( I hope I got The meaning )… .. and the ppl for whom I was a TRUSTED Resource .. now TRUST some one other… . but I don’t have any malice for them…

 few days back I Was watching some Hollywood movies… in which there is a Super actioned packed Hero.. there is a super hot heroine.. and there is A Villain….. I watched them just for fun..but..some where deep in my heart I was very much inspired by the JOHN TRAVOLTA , HEATH LEDGER and other actors who played the negative roles…I felt a sudden urge of my BAD BOY who has been Sleeping in my mind somewhere…to wake up and to Be like them… I thought …let me be a bad boy.. I filtered out the qualities of a BAD person.. like ..care free attitude..willingly talking harsh… Trying desperately to think on the concept of ME FIRST .. OTHER LATER.. ..here is what I faced..
- I tried at a care less attitude…but when the Dealines for my work.. (not only Professional .. bt personal ) like getting the bill paid.. and search for a Flat for Friend…. I automatically did every thg at the right time.
-  When I WILLINGLY tried talking harshly… the person face turned Blank.. “ as sanket .. how can sanket talk like this ??? “ I couldn’t bear the ASTONISHED look.. on their faces… ( as I was prepared for The ROUGH AND TOUGH FIGHT LOOK ) .. said Sorry and some fillers like..my mood is out etc etc.. and Came back.. !!
-when I TRIED for ME FIRST Concept…. And Saw that other person behind me is waiting for me..I Automatically gave my Seat in bus.. / token list @ cafeteria… / position in queue.. automatically to him.. ahh.. I Failed At this time..

I Was just wondering that though I liked the characters of these Super Legend Villains.. my situation is smwhat like MUNNA bhai’s JIMMY SHERGIL .. who did nothing bad in his life..just like me..buit bechara got the troubleosm suffer… . Now I don’t have any Munna bhai in my life.. I am + ive no one will come ..but was just wondering.. in future.. WILL I EVER BE a BAD BOY !!! ??????? and if I fail….in that case will I be in SYNC with the CUT THROAT world…???? expecting some solution from you all .. in My confused life..

 Thank & Regards

Sanket Rajawat

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